To a lot of people, single isn't the greatest of words and for as long as I can remember I've always had someone. Even now, I'm not completely alone. But I am single, since my relationships over the past few years have had a way of not working out. For once though, I'm ok with this. Being single doesn't need to be a curse, and it doesn't need to be something that is negative in my life.
Because really....who am I? I'm not a teenager anymore, technically I'm an adult, though I'll admit I don't really feel like one. I'm in limbo - between the world of college and the world outside of college. In 7 short months, which I am sure will fly by without abandon, the world of college will end and it will be time to leave that limbo, which is something I'm waiting for.
As for the dating part, one day I'm sure it will be something I want, something that I'm excited about. But maybe in this chapter of my life its just not meant to be.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Eat, Pray, Love
The Bhagavad Gita - an ancient Indian Yogic text - says that it is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. So now I have started living my own life. Imperfect and clumsy as it may look, it is resembling me now, thoroughly.
When you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and no let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt - this is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight.
God dwells within you, as you.
If there is one holy truth of this Yoga, that line encapsulates it. God dwells within you as you yourself, exactly the way you are. God isn't interested in watching you enact some performance of personality in order to comply with some crackpot notion you have about how a spiritual person looks or behaves. We all seem to get this idea that, in order to be sacred, we have to make some massive, dramatic change of character, that we have to renounce our individuality. This is a classic example of what they call in the East "wrong-thinking." To know God, you need only to renounce one thing - your sense of division from God. Otherwise, just stay as you were made, within your natural character.
When you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and no let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt - this is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight.
God dwells within you, as you.
If there is one holy truth of this Yoga, that line encapsulates it. God dwells within you as you yourself, exactly the way you are. God isn't interested in watching you enact some performance of personality in order to comply with some crackpot notion you have about how a spiritual person looks or behaves. We all seem to get this idea that, in order to be sacred, we have to make some massive, dramatic change of character, that we have to renounce our individuality. This is a classic example of what they call in the East "wrong-thinking." To know God, you need only to renounce one thing - your sense of division from God. Otherwise, just stay as you were made, within your natural character.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Higher than a satellite
you make everything seem more beautiful
laughter fills the air
smiles crossing lips are second nature
never knew it could be so simple
never thought life could be so easy
all we ever had to do was stop thinking and let go
and breathe, just breathe.
laughter fills the air
smiles crossing lips are second nature
never knew it could be so simple
never thought life could be so easy
all we ever had to do was stop thinking and let go
and breathe, just breathe.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Life Choices
Trying to decide where you want to go in life is not an easy decision. I feel like I have a million conversations in my head going back and forth over the pros and the cons of leaving here. I have my family & my friends here, my life, I'm comfortable here, I love Northern California.
Yet what opportunities do I have? Of course I can find something in San Francisco, but is it where I need to be?
I don't love Southern California, its not a place that I fit in, and the lifestyle is not one that I follow. However, there are more jobs there, and one of my best friends is there offering a home by the beach and a peaceful existence at least in our home.
Then there's the rest of the world....London, New York, Rome...all I need to do is decide where it is I'm going. But making that decision is terrifying, I love home but I'm ready for a change. So I guess the best way to figure this out is to have faith. It's really the only way to ever go down the right road.
Yet what opportunities do I have? Of course I can find something in San Francisco, but is it where I need to be?
I don't love Southern California, its not a place that I fit in, and the lifestyle is not one that I follow. However, there are more jobs there, and one of my best friends is there offering a home by the beach and a peaceful existence at least in our home.
Then there's the rest of the world....London, New York, Rome...all I need to do is decide where it is I'm going. But making that decision is terrifying, I love home but I'm ready for a change. So I guess the best way to figure this out is to have faith. It's really the only way to ever go down the right road.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
Natalia Kills
I've been played around
Love has let me down
Tore my feelings out
I know I need to be rewired
I want to love again
Don't think my heart is just a hard drive
I'm just malfunctioning
Show me how to love,
Show me where to start,
Activate my heart
Show me how to love
Show me where to touch
Teach me how to smile
I came equipped with all the same parts
I'm not just megabytes
So hold me close while I push restart
So I can love you right
Love has let me down
Tore my feelings out
I know I need to be rewired
I want to love again
Don't think my heart is just a hard drive
I'm just malfunctioning
Show me how to love,
Show me where to start,
Activate my heart
Show me how to love
Show me where to touch
Teach me how to smile
I came equipped with all the same parts
I'm not just megabytes
So hold me close while I push restart
So I can love you right
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