Survival

I did it, I survived the torture that was finals. Spring break is officially mine & I'm thrilled with that. This week has been incredibly hard, actually about the last 5 weeks have been hard. I think I might be able to slow down and move on past them now...hopefully relaxing on the beach next week will cure any lingering feelings.

I had to put my little kitty to sleep, he wasn't even 2 yet and he had kidney failure. I loved that little furry thing, he made me laugh. Death really does not set well with me - my dad's 2 year mark is almost here....t minus 13 days and counting....

On another note, small group last night was really good. I enjoy my time with those guys, its allowing me to get to know people other than my main group of friends at church & I think that's a really good thing. Phil asked last night what we thought was our calling in life, what we we're supposed to do with our careers etc. I answered with something that's been on my mind a lot the past 6 months or so...I used to be so concerned with my career - where I was going & being successful. While that's still important there is something so much more important that God has revealed to me....being the best wife and eventually mother that I can possibly be. I know that might seem like a 50's housewife....but to me there isn't anything I'd rather do more, besides serving God for the rest of my life. I WANT to take care of my husband, to be by his side and always be there for him. To help him with his walk with God, to encourage along the way. I WANT to raise beautiful little children who worship God, who understand what it means to love. Not saying that I don't want a successful career doing what I love, I do! I just know that I can do both, but that being a mother and wife is more important that work. I know God is trying to prepare me for this - and I don't always go willingly. Many times I just want to be a kid, to be irresponsible and not worry about things. However, I really see that point in my life starting to fade. I have 9 classes left of college, 9 classes left till everything will start changing. This I know...I have 1 year...

Anyways....just random thoughts. I'm glad summer is almost here, I need the sun to cure me. Winter is such a drag, I need sunshine & heat!

PS: thank you always for the laughs, they make my heart better