Sisters

"My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge."
-Colossians 2:2-3

Everything God does is for a reason - last night many things that confused me finally made sense. Why was God sending me all these horrible men? Why was I even having a difficult time relating to my best friend? It seemed like whenever there was a man involved it just wasn't going to be a good thing. While my bitterness towards men has cooled, I still have no desire to date. I know one day someone will change my mind but when that is I don't know. However, through all of this - through my pain and anger..He brought me something else.

My entire life I've always had more guy friends then girl friends. Usually because girls irritated me more. Over the past couple of months I've actually gained quite a few girlfriends who have been just amazing. Last night I got back one of my sisters, and I know God did it for a reason. I relied to much on men to get what I wanted, that's really not always a good practice. Looking at a woman for help...well I just never really did that. So I'm happy to say another part of the old me is officially dead, because I no longer harbor negative feelings towards having a bunch of girlfriends, it's actually quite fun :]

Last night also made me realize...we really all are not perfect. In fact, we're pretty unperfect. But that's what makes us who we are, what makes us strive to be better, to do what God want's for our life's. So once again I decided to practice my patience, to not lead with emotion or feeling, and to not anger quickly. There really is no point too, for how can I judge someone when I do worse?

I feel good today though, my faith doesn't falter and I just have to keep walking down the right path.