this life...

I know I sound like a broken record - but I want this part of my life to be over SO badly I'm letting it totally ruin any chance of it being enjoyable. I hate going to school, I hate going to work. I want to graduate - I want to actually work at a job that means something. I wish people would stop judging me for being successful, I wish people would just leave me alone.

See...the more I type the more negative I get. I don't want to feel this way, I know who I need to ask for help since there really is only one way to overcome these things. Yet there's some part of me that feels like I should be justified in this frustration. I need to get it together - graduation will come, the job will come, the husband and kids will come. All in good time, if only time didn't drive me so crazy...