shhh, sit down and let me tell you a story

its the story of a girl, a girl who was so lost she didn't know which way was up or which way was down. Now you might think this is a sad story, but its not. It's one of the happiest stories I know. now shh, sit down and let me tell you a story.

cyn·i·cal (sn-kl)
adj.
1. Believing or showing the belief that people are motivated chiefly by base or selfish concerns;
2. Selfishly or callously calculating
3. Negative or pessimistic, as from world-weariness:
4. Expressing jaded or scornful skepticism or negativity:

Cynical, it was her favorite word besides jaded. She relished those words, harbored those feelings and let them feed into who she was. If anyone asked why she was that way she would laugh, and say pain, suffering, being twisted inside is healthy, it gives you a good dose of reality. So it was reality that she craved? She often wondered, but for all those people that found peace and happiness in life she felt nothing towards. For all they were were stupid little minions who thought love and laughter could solve all that torture and pain inside. Pssh what did they know? THEY KNEW NOTHING.

Years wore on, it got worse. It got so bad that the very thought of love, marriage, children, it all was a burden. Something that could not be bothered with, because her life, HER needs were so much more important. Now - why was this little girl like this? Didn't anyone love her? Yes, actually many people tried to love her, but she pushed them away with so much force they eventually would stop trying. Leaving her alone, without people who actually cared for her, and instead left her in the hands of people like herself, rotting and ugly inside.

It was a miracle, a series of miracles that saved this little girl from herself. The details are not as important as the message of life this story brings. Through LOVE, really only through love did she change. Love of God, of a man, of family, friends, clear summer days, her grandma's cooking, the smell of cookies in the oven....silly little things really. That made her realize just how precious this life we have is. Yes, one day we will go to Heaven and be with God, but she now understood the importance of accepting her life on Earth as well. While so much of life here is ugly and horrible, there are those things that make it worth while. There is beauty everywhere - you only need to look for it.

Love, such a simple word - yet it has the ability to change a person. While there are many that run from it, are terrified of letting themselves feel that, it will get you now where but misery and pain. Misery and pain, those are not your friends. They might make you feel, but its the wrong kind of feeling. As time wore on, she realized all of this. Life is hard, but you have to choose to NOT be the victim of the master of this Earth, and instead choose to rise above it and fight for life, fight for love and fight for yourself. There will be those that will always catch you when you fall, that will never leave you - but to a point, the only person that can save you from yourself....is yourself.

Now child, do you understand the point of the story? It's quite simple, so I'll tell you one more time. As you get older life will become dreary, it will become old. Find beauty, treasure it, love it, it will heal your soul, it will enable you to live.